Zooey Noel

This weekend has been very good for me. I have learned how wonderful people can really be. The amount of support I am getting sometimes sets me back because it makes me realize how much more I can give too. There has been tears shed but with that comes understanding. I am being told that I am teaching some people how to be strong and they are learning that there is more to life then what they thought,  very humbling as you can imagine. I am not doing this to be strong at something or to make people think I am great, I am doing it because I have to. She is my daughter, and know matter how long she is with me, that part will never change. 

I have enjoyed this weekend with my girls, Tori and Mya, and with lots of my girlfriends. It was nice to get away from explaining everything and just act like everything is okay. We got out to the fair and took our time and just enjoyed the food and crafts. Later that night,  ate dinner with friends and Andy. I laughed and was even able to talk about her without crying :). One other thing I found out this weekend is that she likes chocolate, or at least her body does, just like her mommy!

And, if you didn't notice the title, we named her. She has now gone from she to Zoe Noel. Her daddy had Zooey
 picked for sometime now, and I picked Noel. I wanted something kind of peaceful but different. 

Tomorrow starts a new week, I have to meet with the Hospice people in the morning and we go back to my specialist Tuesday morning. I am hoping I still feel like I do now after all that but I guess it just depends on what they can tell me. I will try to keep my head held high and just keep pushing back at all the negativity.